SIGH I felt so annoyed for 80% of today... It's almost as if everyone was doing everything in their capacity to annoy me. But I realize that occasionally it is not others who are at fault, and it is my pet peeves pissing me off. It pains me to admit this, but to be honest, I do have an inexplicable intolerance of some very minor behaviours, and although I don't mean to, a little part of me starts to whisper nasty things about the irritant and it makes me want to distance myself from my friends because I feel guilty for getting mad at them over nothing at all so I end up getting very quiet but the little part of me comes back to whisper nastier things and I end up getting angrier yet guiltier over my inner conflict so it always ends with me slightly pissed. Get it? Anyway, since it's CNY in 2 days and I'm really free right now, I will, for my own sake, list down my pet peeves and attempt to explain/unravel their causes.
1. Touching my face.
Why the fuck you wanna touch my face??? Do you know that human hands are incredibly filthy and I don't even know if your hand is cleaner than my foot so I would appreciate it very much if you didn't smear my beloved face with your grimy germ-infested hands.
2. Turning your back on me.
Ok this is one of my most unreasonable ones. I get really REALLY annoyed even if we aren't talking and it's kind of like an in-class thing.....I honestly have no idea when I picked up this idea, but I always thought that it was very rude because turning your back on someone is symbolic of disrespect!!! And it makes me feel ignored. Also it's like you only turn back to me when you need me???? Right.
3. Talking too much and not listening.
Do you really need to talk so much????? What I hate the most is when some dumbshit just can't accept when someone else is saying something and simply refuses to respond in an appropriate manner and just keeps trying to cut in. Then I talk to you for what??? You can just talk to yourself right???
4. Asking me for advice and then asking someone else and someone else and someone else.
Why you even bother asking me??? Clearly, you're a serious case of someone who just wants to hear your own opinion in a few other voices just to reaffirm the rightness of your decision.
5. Telling me your life story and expecting me to care.
Self explanatory. Related to 3.
6. Insulting me.
Ok this one's ambiguous. I can take jokes to a certain extent, but some words are capable of automatically triggering my bitch-mode.
7. Doing a combination of not-so-annoying things.
Some things are tolerable, but when you mash them all together and attempt to approach me? NO.
I know this is just me being a self-righteous narcissist!!!! I love myself too much to put up with other people. I really think the world would be a better place if everyone was me. But of course, I am only saying this now because I'm moody. I don't really have any real opinions that aren't affected by my mood. I hope my annoyance at everything and everyone will subside by tomorrow.
Oh yes today after the boringest bio lesson ever, I went to bytes to just chill and not meet anyone. However, Wee Tiong was there so I ended up drawing him some pictures from THE ADVENTURES OF CAT-TIONG: THE HELPFUL I.T. CAT WHO WEARS NO PANTS. They include pictures such as "Cat-Tiong and colleagues", "Cat-Tiong and his bitches", "Cat-Tiong twerking", "Nyan-Tiong" and many more! Too bad I did not take a picture. I quite like drawing because it is only then that no one expects me to talk or say anything. I hate it when people expect me to be enthusiastic and excited about everything as well. True enthusiasm can only shine when one is unaware of its manifestation. People who cackle, jump around and say things like "I AM SO DAMN HIGH AND ENTHU!!!!1!1!1!1!!" are lying to themselves. If I even become a psychologist I will write about that. Goodbye.
