No, I don't mean a physical change like my metamorphosis from morbidly obese band otaku to not-so-fat sports gal. I'm talking about my mental state. To be 101% honest.............. I'M BECOMING A REAL B1+CH!!!!! :(((((((( I know it but I can't stop it...sort of like when you know you're gonna sneeze but at the same time know you can't stop it and all you can do is anticipate it. Well that's how I feel. I've been getting annoyed at the pettiest and most inconsequential things in my life and giving people who annoy me that "butt off u shithole" message :(((((( okay I admit I also did that in the past too BUT IT WAS ONLY PERIODIC!!! NOW THIS HORRIBLE ATTITUDE HAS BECOME A PART OF WHO I AM!!!! I don't want to be like this!!!!!!!! But maybe there's an explanation for this! What if our tolerance for annoyances just drops with age?!? That would explain why adults are so anal. Hmmm. Anyway, my life's motto has changed to "If you don't control your anger, your anger will control you." Recently, whenever I get pissed, I've been hissing "fffffffffffffffffff*ck" under my breath. And now I can't stop!! Especially when someone makes a jokey insult and my mouth automatically forms the "fffffffffff" part of the f-word and I have to muster up all my willpower to prevent my glottis from pronouncing the whole word!!!!!!!!!! It's terrible. So, if you ever experience me being like that........you know it's time to SCRAM. 

Ohya since I'm finally blogging after 10 years I'll also talk about yesterday. Strings concert!!!!! It was great, as always. Pianoworks was just eh. Normal. Just like the rest of my sad life.